had marching practice and sketch meeting today.

im the mark timer for marching!!! ohmymum!!!

well, it all started like this..

Xinee chatted with me on fb chats few days ago. 

telling me that their having marching audition for ACS Gathering (yes, another gathering) on this saturday. she asked to come if i wanna join..so i was like. sure lahh. i mean why not right?

it's fun mahh :D

and Xinee suddenly came up to me and tell me to be the mark timer

i was like "whaaaaaaaaatt??? whyyyy??" and she say lahh..

Amanda (supposed to be our mark timer) going to Perlis and all..blahblahblah.

and i was like..okaaayy. :/ 

seriously, im scared. mark timing man... :/

scary ahhhhh!!!!

*scream!!!!*

but it's okay. i know i can :D i just need a lil more practice :D

MAY GOD BLESS ME!!! :/

i hope i won't do mistake on that day...

oh gosh!!!!!!!!!!

:/

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why can't it be a fairytale? 

Min woke me up today. if not i'll continue sleeping til donno what time.

hahah

straight to the toilet and brush my teeth and wash my face.

after that moaning and groaning on my bed..comb my hair..lol. 

and finally went downstairs to look for FOOD! 

i was so hungry. cause i didn't really eat during the gathering.

but there's no food -.- so i decided to order McD :D

asked bro and dad whether they want or not before i order.

so yeah. i ordered fillet-o-fish set :)

after that went online..lol.

i was onlining throughout the day.

nothing much to do since exam's over. and hols started already.

sigh. starting to miss my friends and all. it's like..i see my friend yesterday..and i started to miss them already?

lol. so weird. but yeah. i really miss them. 

sometimes..school days are really fun. thank god for giving us friends :D

they really do play an important role in our life eh? 

: )

i was missing him badly. so i decided to text.

well, at first..i didn't have the guts so text him.

but at the end..i just press the sent button cause i don't wanna regret.

and yeah. after pressing the sent button.. i put my phone away and start hoping that he'll reply.

waiting waiting waiting..

then suddenly..

 *pong pong pong* (my message ringtone)

straight! jump to my bed and unlocked my keypad and see who text me. LOL

see see..message form LILY! 

oh my god.

so potong.

when i saw her name my heart went *chiiiiakk*

so damn sad man.. then when i wanna reply Lily..suddenly...  *pong pong* again!

so i close Lily's message immediately and see whether it's him or not..

and YES! this time is REALLY him!!! :D:D:D

i was sooo happy!

so yeah. didn't really bother to reply Lily's message after that. im sorry.

but ahhh. when i talk to him right..i won't talk to anyone else but him.

hahah.

so yeah. we talktalktalk...until dinner time he didn't reply edi.

sigh.

and tomorrow..i donno whether i should text him or not.

i tend to have this feeling that im disturbing him or something.

but im scared to ask if im disturbing or not..cause i find it annoying.

and now..whenever i hear the *pong pong pong* sound from my phone..i'll always think it's him

but when i view it..it's always someone else. 

he won't text me anymore i guess.

wanted to read his blog just now though i know he won't blog anymore

but see see! HE PRIVATE IT!!!

it shows that he's blogging!

omg!! why?! why wanna do this to me?!

i tried signing in..cause maybe he invited me or something..but i couldn't get through it!

gosh! damn it!

sigh..

really wanna know what is he blogging.

anyways, yeah. went to jj after dinner to buy groceries.

went there with bro,grandma, and that woman.

had cotton candy ice cream :D

it was nice, of course. hahah

and went to popular after that..to get some revision books for myself to do during the hols.

that's if im not lazy. but i'll always remind myself.hahah.

hahah. well, trials coming. i really hope i can do good.

cause from what i heard from other ppl..trials is important and hard.

so if i do good in my trials..im sure i can do well in my PMR :)

sometimes, i don't really get why you guys like to judge ppl before you know them.

i find that such stupidity, seriously.

think twice before you say what you wanna say.

mind you.

please please. i know you know that i like you. soo please..say something. 

SMI Gathering (Realizing the Undisclosed Dream)

FRIDAY: 

exam finally ended on 4th of june!!!

hahahah

big relief man.

seriously. hahahah

science paper 1 was not bad.

but it's really easy if you really study.

hahah. and sejarah......errr...don't wanna talk bout it.

i screwed it. :/ that's because i slept while studying and didn't set the alarm to wake up at 3 to continue.

smart, i know.

SATURDAY:

check the time** 6.52!!! O:

woke Hilda up immediately!

we supposed to wake up at 5.30 but stupid alarm didn't ring or anything.

and we need to reach smi at 7.30 

i was rushing like hell but Hilda slumber niee..

and yeah. we didn't eat our breakfast or anything. 

we reached there around 7 something.

wasn't late. pheeeww*

reached there waited for like..few minutes then we enter the school and wait again..to register.

and after that..we enter our class and start painting banner..

watched marching. hahahah. MGS formation is quite similar to ours..

but we did better of course! hahah :D

and yeah. we got Best Marching hahah. congrads to the marching team :D

after that nothing much also..walk here and there. hahah. 

had fun taking picture with Ser Lynn and Paveena with Kai Wen's DSLR

hahah

im loving her camera man. so freaking nice to hold it and nice to take!

especially the chiak** sound when you click the button.

hahhah..so nice to hear :D:D:D

hahah. 

stayed inside the class..paint banner and all.

then walk here and there again..and yuppp. i saw him.

omg!!! so cute lah. hahaha. but i escape. i just donno how to react..until evening. i had to pass by the registration place

and yeah. just smile lahh. hahah. and i 'talked' to him when i ask some random guy to get me 4 chairs and 4 tables. hahaha

the convo went like this..

me:err..excuse me..can you get me 4 chairs and 4 tables?

guy:errr...ummm...

then he came! smilling all the way..lol. I was like uhhhhh! why do you have to come?!?!?!

HIM:errr..what you want?

me: (hearts beating. BOOP BOOP BOOOOOPP**) err..i need 4 chairs and 4 tables.

HIM: for what?

me: haarr?? (i can't hear what he say..cause i was like..dreaming? LOL)

HIM: for what..??

me: huh? what??

HIM: for what???

me: Ohhhhh!! for sketch :D

HIM: smile* okay :)

me: err..thank you. smile*

lol..yeah. so scared.......hahah.

i was so worried for sketch though im not acting or anything.

worried until i wrote every single scenes on my hand.

hahhahha.

and yeah. when everything ready..the tables,props and all.

all the sketch ppl gather behind the stage 

and everyones like everywhere..the most panicking part was...

when ser lynn asked me to help her with audio...very last min.

serlynn:peiqi, i need you to help me with audio!! i told yee laine to help you with props already.

me: errr..okay okay. 

then i heard Zatil calling me.

so i jumped down from the lorry immeadiately cause the sketch's starting in like...few more mins!!!

me: yes??

Zatil: telling weng kit* she's the stage crew you ask her everything she'll tell you how to arrange the stuffs and all.

i was like...WHAAAAATT?! i thought im helping with ser lynn with audio and stuff? *in my heart*

me: errrr...OKAY OKAY!!

run to the lorry and tell ser lynn that i can't help her with audio cause blah blah blah..then she like OMG OMG!!! how how?? then i was like..chill. i'll ask yee laine to help. then yeah.

go to yee laine and ask her to help ser lynn with audio. 

pheeeww. that's like the scariest part. -.-

making me panic.

the sketch was okay lahh. Amanda's part was really funny : )

and i was like laughing my ass off behind the stage. 

HAHAHAH!

after sketch got nothing much lahh. 

i was so tired..so i was just standing while my friends are dancing like some mad person. LOL. took video of them jumping here and there. hahah. so funny lahhh..aiyooo.

amd ermmm.......we got Best Marching,BEST BANNER :D,Best Attendance,Most Supportive,Best Singing,Signature Hunt, and OVERALL CHAMPION! seriously, damn happy! :D yelling my lungs out,clapping and cheering.

hahahah. it's all worth it!!!! :D:D:D:D

 

after everything...cleaning up and all. i wanted to talk to him sooo badly!!! but i can't..cause he's like busy with stuffs and i had to go back cause im following Roseveen.

sigggghh. so sad :/

look at her!!!!...............

just look at her!

-.-

 

 

abe,lyea and i

i was bored. so i asked them to take picture with me.

hahaha.

and SEE!!!! im actually taller than lyea! 

gosh..i grew :D

MATHS!

MATHS! 

yuuuuupp. we had maths today. O:

it was...i donno know also. 

LOL.

before entering the hall i was so excited to see what's coming..

and after i see those paper..im not excited already :(

i had not enough time to finish AGAIN! i tembaked quite alot.

i thought i did not bad, but instead i did BAD!

cause..after the exam..i checked with friends. and i found out i did a lot of careless mistake!

OH MY GOD! 

feel like taking back my paper and do it again :(

seriously, i donno why i've not enough time to finish.

and sitting in the hall for exams is sooo tention,and those teacher walking here and there. 

those heels sounds make me lagi tention :((

so overall, it's shitty, suckish and uhhh! what can i say more?! go studyyyyy!

tomorrow is just plain hard. geography! KH! SCIENCE!

ohhhhh noooo! 

i was freaked out when i see the timetable the day before.

why is it so hard?? it's mid term man..my parents will be taking my report card for mid term man!!!!

ohh myyy myyyyy myyyyyyyyyy muuuum! :'(

im gonna fail. yup, gonna fail real hard this time..gone lahh.... GONE!

 sometimes......iPod do play an important role for  :) 

it destress our stress

yup. my calculator has a BEE sticker on it :P

hahah. soo cute.

 

thumbs up**

feel like eating Baskin Robbin's cotton candy ice-cream.

mmmmmm...mmmmmm..

Had English paper 1 and 2 today. 

didn't have enough time to finish paper 2!!!

spend most of my time doing section A..

left about half an hour to do my section B and C

so yeah.  was rushing like a mad person!

OOO:

summary was still OKAY..but literature was HELL!! 

anyway, it's OVER!

*pheeeew*

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Having maths tomorrow :D

i wonder what's coming out!! hahaha. can't wait.

im so eager to see the paper.

can't wait! CAN'T WAIT!

but im still not very sure of Algebraic Formulae!! and and!! Statistic!!

O:

thought of asking Amanda after my exam. but see see..can't!

cause she's still having her exam.

so yeah. 

went to Roseveen class..chit chatted and Safiah came in. 

so have to go back to class then continue doing maths.

Shirley teach a few question. 

hopefully, tomorrow question is as easy as what she thought just nowww. 

OMG OMG OMG!!! 

Gathering is like..less than a week! and we haven't done anything yet :/

im so worried bout modern dance. they haven't start anything. 

though im not performing or in modern dance..but i don't know.

im just worried. wanna help out.

but im not good at dancing. siiigh.

and we're gonna START painting our BANNER on FRIDAY!

yessss! FRIDAY!

a day before the gathering.

i wonder how.

i have sketch and banner..and i donno how to separate myself for that two thannnggg.

gotta do the car and paint the banner??! 

*faint!*

but if Pan-Pan say can...means can?

uhhh..uhhhh..

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omg omg omg!!! my heart went....

BOOOOOM BOOOOOOOMMM! POOOOOOOW! 

!@#$%^&*

when i told/confess to him. 

seriously,i just can't wait til Friday. 

just can't wait til mid-term E.N.D!

that'll be HALLELUJAHHHH!!

i hope you're reading this. i like you :/

i know it's too late. im so stupid. but you never try asking me.

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i've dreamt thrice about my PMR results. this shows how much i think about it.

im so scared.

scared i won't get good results and scared of what ppl think bout it. 

it's embarassing. when ppl ask how many A's you get.. and you'll be like...errr..no A's?

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seriously im so confuse lahh. i know i can't follow my feeling.

i can't follow my mood. but oh my gosh! i feel like dying man.

and you're not talking to me like how you used to already.

i miss you so much. 

I MISS YOU VERY VERY MUCH! can you please talk to me????? i mean..talk to me like last time please! text me please! you don't choi me anymore. 

seriously, i regret alot. 

i donno what's wrong with me.

im so angry right now. im angry for no reason. and i feel like crying at the same time.

i literally shouted on the phone when my mum called just now. freaking line! gosh!

i feel so guilty right now. im sorry,mum.

im so angry at myself.

okay. everytime when i have the feel to study..i cannot study cause i'll be outside or in school when teacher's teaching in class or whatever shit. but when i don't have the feel to study..im so freaking free. seriously! what is this lahhh. exam is like so near! yet im here. onlining listening to 'i wanna be a billionaire' song! UHHHH! making me feeel double GUILTY!

i tried studying. but things just..aren't getting in my damn head! okay. i admit. i didn't try hard to study. well, that's because im in a bad mood! (okay, i know that's an excuse) oh god! ALLLLAAAAAAAAAHHH! *scream*

and YOU! goooshh. kay lah. not your fault. cause you don't even know that i like you right. but SIGH** you reply other ppl also don't reply me? :/ why? 

????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

God, im clueless.

PeiQi, you're not putting in any effort. work your ass off please! you're way too lazy! remember what you promise yourself  before year 2010 begin?? oh fish!